Life is a series of choices. Every step is a choice, an option, a decision. We try our best to make these choices based on what we know. What we pick may not be based on what is right and what is wrong, but what we believe in our minds and hearts. Whatever we do decide, we have to compromise. It is always one or the other.
Rambling. That is what I’ll be doing here now. I generally like to string my thoughts, make sure they are tuned and then put them out. I have noticed sometimes that what I say comes out totally wrong. When I speak without thinking, my words are mixed, and my thoughts are mixed, so what I say, doesn’t quite make sense.
This of course has nothing to do with my moments of nervousness. I sometimes become nervous and say completely irrelevant things. This has happened in quite a few occasions and I usually can spring out of it. I can be witty sometimes, other times I use diversions and other means to distract people from my faulty words of meaninglessness.
It sure has been a while since I have posted a video. Before pressing play. Relax. I mean it. Stop for a moment, close your eyes and take a slow deep breath through your nose and feel the air. Then, while still closing your eyes, slowly exhale through your mouth.
Repeat the previous process until you feel more relaxed. Do it, you won’t lose a thing, besides all the stress you’re in :)
Now.. Enjoy the video clip.
Song: Kyoto Garden – Miyagi
Now the question is: Is it possible to be angry, yet still calm and totally composed?
So what’s the problem? You go into an institute or something along those lines to get a service or buy something. Usually you’re already part of this institute because you have an account with them, or, they are part of the government. Naturally they would ask for (a) document(s), and you would kindly and happily provide them.
Here comes the problem. They don’t only check your I.D. but they make copies as well. Every. Single. Time. Not only do they make copies of your Civil ID card but your bank card (ATM, VISA, MasterCard..), other I.D., copies of other photocopies.
Tell me, is there a goofy green drooling monster these people have in their basement that feeds off copies of people’s I.D. and private documents?
As I promised I would be writing a series about what I would want to be. In part 1, I discussed why I want to be an engineer. The good thing there, is that the opportunities are all available, but being an engineer is not all what I want to be. I also want to be a scientist.
Since I was a young boy I loved playing the mad scientist. I assume I got the idea from all the TV shows and cartoons back then. It seemed quite cool, to be the evil genius who mixes chemicals and creates an explosion that in the end produces a strange and powerful chemical that would probably make a person invincible! As young as I was, I was quite unfamiliar with the concepts of chemical reactions, only that certain colored liquids mixed together would probably produce something quite cool.
I remember buying my first chemistry set. I was so overjoyed! I didn’t know most of the chemicals on there, but I knew that eating them was dangerous, so I suppose that was all I had to know. There was a little booklet with experiments to go with it, but I was not interested in simple experiments. I remember going crazy one day, and mixing minerals in a beaker and different chemicals and it started to froth and react and overflow! I was overjoyed! I felt like a true mad scientist that has created something!
I was young at the time, very young, so bare in mind I am not naturally cruel to animals, but what came next was only natural. I got a needle and filled it with the evil liquid I had created. I needed a test subject, so I caught a cockroach. Yes, I did. It was evil, and I would never do such a thing again. I injected it with this chemical fluid, I won’t go into detail, but nothing exciting happened.
That is not why I want to be a scientist, but I wanted to create things. As I grew up, I wanted to work in a lab, making all these experiments and creating cures, medicines, chemicals, and God knows what! However that is not science, that is only a brach of it, and what I’d really want to do is become a scientist in all fields.
I’d want to make a new discovery that would perpetually benefit everyone.
I’d dedicate my resources on the present situation, and study current problems that are affecting people to solve them.
I’d try to build on our scientific heritage, after all some of the best scientists were the arabs.
I’d make the knowledge publicly available, and even explained in the best way, for everyone to understand.
I’d study, and test, every chemical product to the fullest before making it available to the public.
Lastly, I would not be doing this for business either, education and knowledge goes bad when it is commercialized.
We ask ourselves if we are who we wanted to be, or if we will be who we want to be. I do hope that we can all be what we’d like, however sometimes we’re not. This doesn’t necessarily mean we don’t like what we do, or we regret not doing what we’d like to have done. (confused yet? :p) I’m planning to write a series of what I wanted to be. The reason is, because I wanted to be many things, what I am now, is one of them, I’ll mention that last.
Today I’ll mention why I want to be an engineer. Sure, I loved breaking radios and little toys just to see how they worked. I used to get scolded a lot when I was younger, always breaking things and rarely ever put them back together. I did learn how a lot of things worked, and wanted to create stuff on my own. I don’t believe I did create something, but I always imagined it. This is probably why I have a hypothetical Slapper product that will probably never see the light of day (hope it wouldn’t its pure evil :p).
I entered engineering school here in Kuwait University, and wanted to be an Airplane designer. Sounds cool doesn’t it? Sadly, my hopes were shattered when I started failing in Calculus B and Physics 2, even the subjects (in Arabic) which were supposed to help me pass and raise my GPA were no good for me. I failed them miserably too. I changed my left and changed my major altogether, and don’t really have much ties to engineering anymore.
I do have an understanding of it, I see things in a very systematic way, and get quite a bit of engineering concepts. I’d really want to be an engineer to make the world a better place.
I’d try to invent better environmental products. I wouldn’t mind the cost if the long time benefit would be higher.
I’d research into better raw materials and a systematic and efficient way to use them, and all their byproducts, up until disposal. Sadly, it seems that currently not the whole process is looked into.
I’d concentrate on building things that don’t easily break, and can be easily repaired by anyone. Wouldn’t it be just helpful if you could fix something for cheap, and get affordable, reusable, durable spare parts?
As an engineer I’d listen to the people, not the companies, in the end the products I’d create are for the people to use, not the companies to make big $ off of.
I’d really love to participate in technology and advanced forums as well. New technology is good, but most of it hasn’t been tested that well.
Some of you may have seen the latest changes to the MacBook Pro. Since I have the older PPC PowerBook it seems only natural for me to update my laptop, add to that the constant nagging from some people I know *cough* Bojacob *cough* MJKout *cough*cough* G *cough*… excuse me.. seems like I caught something. Another huge reason for me to update is that PPC processors are outdates, most current applications only support Intel processors (especially work related applications in my case).
I went ahead and tried to order it from Apple but they refused my request stating that:
U.S. SALES ONLY -
The Apple Store sells and ships products only within the continental
United States, Alaska, and Hawaii. No shipments can be made to APO or
FPO addresses, United States territories, or addresses outside the
United States. You may not export any products purchased at the Apple
And then they said something about…
We sincerely regret any inconvenience this may have caused you.
Inconvenience? Yeah, you bet! I’m currently looking for a solution to this dilemma. I would rather buy it from the U.S. since it is much cheaper, and would save me well over 150KD which is approximately 550USD! If anyone has a solution please let me know through the comments or you can get my e-mail from my blogger profile.